I cannot believe of what was happen to me in Thursday.

We were going to have a family moment to the movies, but since we have six tickets to go see Legion, we have to being my brother's friends to come along with us, I didn't mind, but my family wants me to being some of my friends also, I know that no friend of mine will come, either they have other plans, they couldn't go because of their parents, or there grounded. As always, we always have to be hurry up and stuff to get there early, and I know that something will gone wrong and it actually happen, as always.

I chosen to go to one of my brother's friends neat car, and he was a Chinese guy, he listens to Chinese, of course, I like the songs he has, we went to a fast food place to get something to eat, that was the time I was little hungry, but saving it for hot dogs and stuff. So I ordered a small chicken sandwich and a chocolate frosty, I finished my meal once we got to the movies, once where were at the movies with my parents and two of my brother's friends, I wanted to call my brother if he's here yet with the rest of his friends, he did gave me his phone, and helped me dial my brother's number, and also helped me to call also, it was a different system of the phone of his, so he knows that I needed help... so I just called my brother to tell him that are they there yet. For saying it kindly to me what did I get? He yelled at me and cursed at me... that really hurt me a lot, I know that I got used of him using his hated on me like it was all my fault of his actions. But that was uncalled for.

After all the problems were solved, we all watched the movie, it sucked because some characters that I liked just got killed, that's alright though, It happens to me sometimes. After watching the film, I told my mother what happen between me and my brother, she told me that if he does that again all I have to tell him is that I don't care and hang up the phone, I'm not like that kind of a person, but if I wanted to heated up with my brother, it's my fucking guess. My father agreed on my mother, but when my both parents were talking to each other, I hold my jacket and cried a bit because I can't believe of what was happening to me, My father noticed that I was crying and tells me that everything will be alright and he was going to buy me some ice cream, I accepted it and eat the ice cream, but that will not let me to forget what my brother did to me.

After My father parked the car, I was holding the chocolate ice cream for my brother, I saw him and his friend standing, I told him that we bought him a damn ice cream, he said thanks, and I just pass by him and go to the stairs, I just stay there next to the door, almost finishing my ice cream, my both dogs noticed that I was there, so they barked. When my family arrived to open the door, I was the one to enter first, throw my jacket inside the bedroom, put his ice cream down, and continue eating my last bites of the ice cream, my brother said he was sorry, I told him nice and coldly to me "It doesn't matter anyways, You always use your hated on me." Then we never speak again after that.

I hopefully don't doubt that he actually learned his lesson, because I know he will do it again.

Bunch of stuff happen while i was here last month, like last week during my Thanksgiving break, by both friends were angry at each other for one behavior face- meaning that one of my friends just not in the mood to hear some jokes with my other friend, so yeah, i have to stayed up to four in the morning to settle things out with them--- well kinda... i think i didn't really help at all, but i'm in it also, since i am the one who confused them up alot, I just hope that nothing like this would happen again between my two friends... but now there just you know okay now, even though i think it's still going on, just that i'm just not there...

And also, I just actually founded out that one of my brother's friends are going to stay with us for quite a while, i was like 'alright then, it's just one of his friends...' but then since my mother told me that her grandmother doesn't want her anymore and to get out of the house, I hate when those people actually exist, kick you out of your own loving home and force to go live with the world, but it's a good thing that my pairents are that kind enough to bring her home with us, yes, my brother's friend is a women, my brother calls her Bibi for short, so i just call her that also, since i am still learning her nature and such, she seems... little weird, but a happy-go-lucky women also, I just wonder why that someone like her grandmother just kick out someone like her... but yeah, she's going to stay with us as long as she wants, but hey, at least i am get to know her better at least... but there is one thing that i didn't really noticed it, my brother loves her, just that he's really shy to take action, even though he told me about it, i always tell him to take action already, but he's too shy... it's like he wants me to help him and stuff, i mean i already seen him getting his heart broke three times in a row, so i guess i have no choice, but then this night i just noticed it now.... Bibi just went with another male.... my mother thinks that she loves that other male instead of my brother, and she wants me to talk to her about it, so I really have no choice, tonight i have to talk to her and stuff.... oh well, it's my brother's love that he wanted to do for the first time in his life, might as well help him in this, even though he didn't really help me when i need help, oh well.

but besides all that, My thanksgiving was great, having a family dinner night.... just that we just ate chinese food instead of turkey and stuff... *sweatdrop*

My friends are actually kind to me for my birthday, i'm glad that they actually care~ >w< I can't wait to see all my presents~! even though i made a present by myself lol

I did one, but i thought it was too much Dissidia, so i just post it here XD

It's Zidane with Plushies of Squall, Frioniel, Bartz, Tidus, and Cloud XD just that i don't know why i made Zidane to wear different clothes, maybe i was tried to make him wear his oringal clothes XDU but i just like it how i made him to eat that popicle >3

and this was the very-very-very first one, i was going to post it up on my DA but, it had little errors, you can see them XDU why i choose them? well if you really want to know 10-2-9, you think about it~ ;3

I hope you all well tell me a happy birthday~! >w<b

My family and I just watched "The Ugly Truth." It's funny. Really funny. Sex talking such~ anyways, which i didn't like was this, before the movie started, my mother triped and hurt herself by her cheek, somehow i can't shake the feeling that it was my fault, and i hate that, and the after the movie, when my family and I came home, my brother told me to plug in ps3 [yesps3nojealouslyplz] and so i did, and somehow he got mad randomly, and he told me that it wasn't the game he got mad at it, so he quit the game and leave off to bed, leaving me to unplug it, but before i did it, i kinda saved some pictures that i actually like, since those artest are that awesome, and then i unplug it and such, but still, i cannot shake the feeling today, and i hate it always.

anyways that's done and over with it, i'm almost finshing the pages of it, i only need one more and then i'll go coloring it and such, but the problem is... i don't know how to clean it up, since it's so confusing to clean it up, arugh, sometimes i just don't want to continue it, but i must, for the sake of this project that one of friends that really want this to work, so yeah, i have to do this, eitherway if it is going to cut off my computer time, so yeah.

I hope that everyone have a nice week for this, because i didn't~ *sweatdrop*

I'm not really useing this everyday XDUUUUUUU i should write this places more often!! >x<U

I was just playing that new game Blazblue, the 'kinda famous' fighting game, i already beat Noel and Taokaka's arcade mode, i'm doing to draw them once i finshed stuff i need to do~ time to make this lazy one to get working already! somehow i currently being worried then being normal, one, one of my friends are having these mood swings so much, i've been praying a bit that she is alright, second, my brother is going to have to go to the hospital. Yet again. I hope it will end with a happy one, and also, there so many stuff that i have to do!! TTATTUUUUU

oh yes, i'm actually making a comic, WOO, awsum for me, even though this is actually my first time making a comic [notcountingtheoldones] it's going to be IkexBoyd comic, it's a short one, screw long stories~ :3

well i hope that everyone is alright now, even my friends in my place also, and my friends on the internet XD

All this week I was being annoyed more and more this week, yeah, this week, believe it or not, annoyed and more annoyed then ever, it's like my head is about to explore and died by it...

anyways, why is Brokey is annoyed this week? well if you really want to know, during in school of lunch, my friend is always annoying, no matter what, his cutey-cutey voice makes me reminded of my niece's crying voice, and speaking about my niece, my sister just came about almost every day in this week just to use the computer, and since I cannot bear to hear niece's cries, it gives me a heartache and annoyed alot, and since my friend uses his cutey-cutey voice, it makes it even worse, plus with some annoying people talking and talking and talking, it doesn't help with music, since somehow the speakers in my PSP are quite a bit low, i thought I would have a headache after all that, but I didn't, i just wonder why though... anyways, i just hope this will be calm down... i don't want to hear my niece's cries, my friend's cutey-cutey voice, and ... stuff I guess..

oh yeah I didn't told you guys that I was in the middle of the finals, wish me luck guys, I think i need it the most this time, I hope you guys will have an awesome summer!

BTW, i am doing a project, but i cannot tell you, you never know that my friend who does the cutey-cutey voice will see this and say it to the world, which I won't let that happen, i just going to keep my mouth shut from that topic, anyways, have a good... umm... week

at Saturday, my brother wanted to call my friend, and so I did, and then he told that he went to his other friend to a place that I really wanted to go this year and also said that he call my brother's phone ten times...

I hang up on him because I thoughts are on my mind, I told my brother that if he call him, he said no. And that's when my thoughts were correct...



He was lying to me... at the past he made me cry for nothing... and now this crap.... I told my mother about it, and said that I won't trust him no more.... and I did.... even though he tries to make me happy.... he just made it worse and worse.... It feels like I've been fallin to his trap just to believe in him.... Now it almost feels like I cannot trust anyone in my place where I lived again.... except for those who were trying to make me happy just a bit....

Mister Liar... I hope your reading this.... I hope you are happy that I am shedding tears because of that.... I will never forgive you of what you have done.....

that's really news about me... I just hope I can be cured from this... without him....

I was sick at the beginning of last Wednesday and then I kinda have trouble breathing through my nose and then my family were quite worried from my conduction so my father put be to the hospital.

so I did went to the hospital with my father, and I see some people who has the worst conductions then I have, i saw one old man who cut his finger and bleeding a lot, and I saw one old women in a wheelchair vomiting alot, and I saw a young women suffering in pain on her hips, and she was crying from it also, I was scared in the hospital and to stay with the hospital.

as I went in the room with my father, they put me to do an x-ray, to see they see if I have anything inside my lungs and my chest, they said that I am alright, they gave me more pills to drink, they taste so nasty that I was about to vomit out of them, and they gave my father a blue machine pump so the medicine smoke shall go inside my lungs.

But the main thing is still wanted in my thoughts...

Who is the one of infected me?

My friend didn't even left to another country... so I just wasted my tears,

wasted my worries,

and wasted my thoughts for nothing.

I'm quite angry to him now, I hope your happy to see my cry for nothing if your reading this.... arugh.

but either way i am alright, and fine to talk to you all my friends, just that I won't be talking to my friend who just wanted to see me cry to fun....

He's actually leaving for 2 months, he told me...

he hugged me this is my last words to him when I was about to cry...

"... You Idiot..."

then I cried... without whineing, I cried with anger to him

But it doesn't matter anymore...